From Darkness to the Deepest Connection
On the 9th of the month of Av, we experienced the tremendous destruction of the temple, pain, millions of Jews killed in concealment and darkness. And throughout all generations until the final redemption, we fast and mourn these events on this day.
Then, a few days later on the 15th of Av, our sages tell us that there were no better days for the Jewish nation than the day of T’u b’av (15th of Av).
The Talmud tells us that many years ago the “daughters of Jerusalem would go dance in the vineyards” on the 15th of Av, and “whoever did not have a wife would go there” to find himself a bride.
And the Talmud considers this the greatest festival of the year, with Yom Kippur, a close second!
The question is asked then. How can such two extremely different days on two different sides of the spectrum be so close to each other? How do we go from such a destruction into the “greatest festival of the year”?
This connection between the two days represents a very deep concept which we experience in our daily life.
There are times that we go through complete darkness. Whether we fall into sin or depression, confused about ourselves and the things we have done. Lost in a world of our own, trying to hang onto a breath of faith. Our reality becomes a great burden on our minds and forms a feeling of destruction within.
The time of descent can be the toughest to handle at times.
But Rebbe Nachman of Breslev teaches us that the purpose of descent is only to ascend. And to come closer. To a higher level.
During this difficult time, our minds become heavy and weighed down by self-persecution and therefore making it harder to find anything good in ourselves or any self-worth at all.
We need to remember the times of the month of Av, that from the darkest destruction comes the greatest connection.
When we go through this time of darkness we need to try to go and lift it all up to our creator. Speak to Hashem and pour out our heart felt pain. When we are in pain, it is a time of humility and feeling of the heart.
We can tell Hashem how hard this darkness is on us and how much we never wanted to sin or fall into darkness. It is only the evil inclination form within us that threw us into this hole and we are seeking out Hashem’s help and salvation.
Only Hashem knows our true pain. Only He knows the remedy for our soul.
At that moment, when we let everything out to the master of the universe, the ultimate therapist, and psychologist in the world. We will merit to connect to G-d on levels that we never knew existed.
It is from the depths which we call from and make the deepest connection and strongest comebacks of our lives.
In the merit of:
R’ Eliezer ben Etya, Yitzchak ben Saida, Mordechai Menachem ben Miril, Yitzchak ben Anet Chana, Galit Geula bat Ronit, Yoel ben Regin. And all of Am Yisrael.