Broken Heart vs. Sadness
Rebbe Nachman of Breslev teaches us that there is a thin line between a broken heart and sadness. When we fall in to sin, our first reaction is to become sad and depressed. This instinct comes from the evil inclination within us.
Our holy books tell us that more than the sin itself, the evil inclination wants the sadness that follows it. The evil inclination gets no life from the sin but only from the melancholy and sadness that we feel from the sin.
The Talmud tells us that as soon as we regret our sin, we are forgiven for all of our sins. So, the evil inclination focuses all of its power into what comes after the sin. Since he knows that as soon and we regret what we did we open up gates of mercy and get forgiven.
The battle after we fall
There are times that we find ourselves fighting with all of our might to stay away from the bad but still, we end up falling. And our holy sages teach us that really sometimes we had to fall because the sin was not the actual test.
The test was after we sin.
Will we fall into sadness or will we believe that G-d still loves us and is awaiting our return?
The evil inclination wants one thing, to get us to believe that we have fallen into his own hands. And that we are now stuck in his web.
Rebbe Nachman tells us that this is the entire war against the evil inclination of our times. To clarify in our minds and know clearly that we are not, and never were in the evil inclination’s hands.
It is all the power of his illusion that he uses against us to trick us into despair and therefore having no strength to come back to Hashem.
King David says “Let us fall into the hands of G-d, for His compassion is great”
Here King David is teaching us one of the most crucial lessons to apply to our lives.
When we fall, and no matter how many times it happened. We must always remember that we have only fallen into to the hands of our compassionate father, Hashem.
If we can ingrain King David’s words in our minds. We can merit to have a broken heart instead of sadness and depression.
How will we know if it’s a broken heart or sadness?
The main difference between a broken heart and sadness is that when we are sad after the sin then, we aren’t able to come and speak to Hashem about our pain and sorrow. But if we know that we have fallen only into the hands of G-d then we can merit to have a broken heart.
With a broken heart, we are able to get right back up and come back to G-d and speak out our pain to Him with tears of a broken heart. To come to regret our sin without depression.
When we merit to clarify this and know that we are a holy soul and a port of G-d the almighty. We understand that we have no part in sin and no desire to sin. Our true inner soul desires only to come close to Hashem and to do His will.
So, whether we are battling addictions and the road to freedom can be filled with crushing failure along the way we must always know that really, as long as we are fighting we are winning.
May we merit.
In the merit of R’ Eliezer ben Etya, Yitzchak ben Saida, Galit Geula bat Ronit, Yitzchak ben Anet, Mordechai Menachem ben Miril. And all of Am Yisrael.